i can honestly say i have a new attitude.. im more into takin care of myself.. im glad im back in scho0l doin wat i love.. idk wat i would do without art.. it is my passion.. one of tha reasons whyy im on this earth.. im glad i have this hard shell.. it didnt fail && break on me.. because of my break-up many thought i would stay down.. i guess i realized that everythin was a lie && he didnt really love me.. i may be bitter.. but fukk it im more cautious.. thanxx prick!! i owe u!! because of u im stronger && more determined to get my shyt together.. plz dont flatter urself && think u got me all fukkd up.. no more tears.. i will never give up on my pride into talkin u into bein with me.. && no we cant be friends.. u say ur hurt that im now willin to throw wat we have away so0 lets keep tha friends part NO!! cuz lo0k wat u  did.. yess.. exactly.. so0n he && evryone else will see me shine && he will ether be alone or with some dirty trick.. go0d luck to u.. but yess he's gone && im refreshed like i jus came out tha showers.. && im ok.. so0 i wont knock on love no more.. && to happy couples.. i dont wanna hate on it anymore.. one day i will have mine [[xoxo]]

it sucks so much how when ur tha type of person that has such a good heart.. you make somethin of urself and want only tha best.. it's like all you need is that one person to share ur world with.. ur tired of tha bullshyt and jus want to settle down....

soO check this,, you meet this person and you can sometimes feel an immediate attraction.. i think most people do.. but then ur hesitant to open up to tha person cuz all of tha bullshyt and drama you been thru.. you been thru a fukkd up person after another and another like wen tha fukk will this shyt end??

you meet this person and pray they are different.. and yea you get to know em and tell em you want to take things slow because of tha shyt you've experienced with ur past relationships.. they tell you oO don't worry i understand i been thru things like that too,, i kno what it feels to get shyted on and to have a broken heart and blahh..

yea shyt be good for a while.. so0 you feel like it's ok to open more to that person.. for some.. you fall-in-love.. ugh yes love.. we front on it but only because we kno tha damage that comes with it... you swear there is true love.. i think that's all bullshyt.. no such thing.. good things don't last foreverr.. you think it does.. you feel it so strong in ur heart.. but sorry it's all lies.. so dead ass disney should get sued for havin young girls thinkin that we will find that prince that will sweep us off our feet and carry us in a white horse followin tha sunset.. .. .. .. tha person always end up changin in a way.. theres gna be lack somewhere in tha relationship.. you try so hard to fix it because you love this person so much.. to then see after alittle while tha other person is jus sittin there watchin tha whole thing collapse..

Love is a good and bad thing.. it's hard to explain.. what it does to tha heart,, mind,, and soul.. it controls you badly.. it can make you feel soO high as if you smoked tha only piff.. so happy that nothin can fukk up ur day,, you can stay up all night thinkin of that person and wake up tha nex mornin feelin well rested.. you want to be with that person all tha tyme because you feel as if ur so souls intertwine..

tha bad thing is when ur tha one that has to suffer with tha broken heart.. specially if you were tha good one in tha relationship.. tha one that did evrythin to keep tha glue btw you guys together.. tha one that may have provided alittle more.. that gave to0 much for tha other because their happiness counted more than urs or anyone elses.... jus made sure they had evrything....

soO idk why good ppl end up fukkd up like this it makes you wonder if ur even a good person.. like do you even derserve good things.. mayb ur not meant to be in love.. well all i kno is you can't let shyt like this stop you from doin wat you have to do.. continue with striving for your success .. have that fukk it in your system and worry bout urself.. no ones gna get ur education.. make ur money or pay ur bills.. so i guess you gotta be patient til u find that person that will prove to you that evryone's not tha same....im sorta patiently waitin.... [[xoxo]]